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Tuesday, December 05, 2006

heyheys peoples ! xP
i`m finally back to blogging ..
shall share abt my current mood ;
really irritated by those emo blogs i saw just now ..
not pin-pointing anyone btw . (:
things like maybe its fate barhs ,
or maybe its part of my life barhs .. blablablas .
not that i donte understand what they're going through ;
but more of like maybe bcause i know the truth yet they donte ,
then my thinking is not the same as theirs .. ?

what i think is that ;
maybe what they say is true .
things like its part of our growing experience ..
but i donte believe life is meant to be like that larhs ..
born ; mature ; become old ; sickness ; die ?
NO ! life is certainly not like that derh lorhs .
its impossible that our creator create us ;
for fun ? for this process ?
then might as well he donte create us isnt it ?

then i saw this particular tag in a person's blog ;
writing something like i`ve been through this stage many many times lerhs .
when i saw , my immediate response in my mind is ,
then why let yourself go through it again and again ?
its true isnt it ?
since we can choose how to live our life on earth ;
either to live for our Heavenly Father joyfully and
experience his grace ; his blessings ; his love for us ,
or to live in this world ; indulging in a few moments of pleasures of sins .
why donte we choose the BEST for ourself ?
and its certainly to live for Jesus . (:
for who can give us a better life than our very own creator ?
or who will know us better than our own creator ?

there's something thats really puzzling mie ,
is that why people love to get themself hurt so much ?
why make themself so miserable ?
i have gone through what they've gone through ;
crying till there's no more tear for mie to tear anymore ,
cutting like nvr before ,
but at the end ; i realised something .
that is there's NO relationships that can last forever
except for relationship with Jesus . (:

even relationship with parents ;
cause we all will become old and die ,
friendships with friends ;
we'll have to part one day , matter of earlier or later ,
boy-girl relationships ;
i donte believe it'll last for long either .
quarrel , fight , quarrel , break ..
there may be some sweet moments in between ,
but it wonte last forever ..

sometimes ,
we may all long for someone to pamper us ;
to come and care and concern for us specially,
and this certain guy comes along ,
it may not actually be that yoo like / love him .
it may be that he feeds ur need at that point of time and
yoo mistook that feeling for it .. (:

for mie ;
i also sometimes long for someone to embrace mie ,
to be sweet to mie , to care for mie ... etc .
but it need not be some guy right ?
everyone of us is not perfect , only God .
he knows us best ; and will take care of us (:

last thing ,
wanna clearly explain why God expects us to change our
characteristics ; personality etc .
its because thou God love us the way we are ,
he refuses to leave us that way ;
he wants us to become like Jesus christ .
as he wants us to live the Best out of our life .
-- i nvr wanna live my life less than what you`ve planned for mie . (:

i`ve came through ;
and have overcomed ..
i hope my friends ; they will overcome too .
i hate to see them torturing themself .
i`m sharing all these cause i hope it may benefit those who read my blog .
well , i seem to have alort to say hors ? hahahs . xP
thats abt it . goodbye folks ! <33s



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decision made not out of feelings,
but out of clear mind and commitment
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